One more day?

So this is my first post since my surgery. Wednesday night was rough for me. I don't remember much, except for waking up in the worst pain I've ever felt in my life. It had felt like I had been stabbed numerous times in the stomach and at the time felt like I had no medicine in my body. I remember them waking me up while on the way to recovery and I was crying and hyperventilating so badly, except everytime I would cry it would hurt worse and worse. I remember my mom and dad coming into the recovery room and just looking at them seeing how worried they were because I think I looked very bad and in pain at the time. My parents said we were waiting there for a few hours but I honestly felt like it was only about 30 mins until I was transported back to my room. They had to have multiple people lift me from one bed to another because i physically couldn't move. I remember having my own pain pump, but couldn't tell you how often I pressed it. I don't remember much that night either, it's all quite a blur.

When I woke up the next morning I was still in a lot of pain. I also realized I was connected to a cathedar still so I kept getting the feeling that I had to pee but it would go away. I actually don't remember much the next day after surgery now that I think about it either. I know I slept a lot and they eventually took the cathedar out which scared me because that meant I would have to get up myself to use the bathroom. After some time, a physical therapist came in to help me get up for the first time. I actually couldn't move without someone's help. My stomach was so sore and my legs were so weak. Once I sat up, it took me some time to waddle from my bed to the bathroom to finally go pee on the toliet. Going pee the few times I did that day might've been the only times I got up that day. I was also still on a clear liquid diet, but I wasn't hungry at this point anyways so it didn't matter much.

Friday rolled around and I was already feeling quite better. I was still on my morphine pump (which helped a lot) and I think this morning I was allowed to drink my clear liquids to make sure everything went through my system as planned. And it did. I think they also switched me to a low residue solid diet for dinner where I ate a grilled cheese and some mashed potatoes. However for some reason my heart rate when crazy while I was eating so we told the nurse and they came in to do an EKG test on me, just in case. Everything was normal, my body was probably just freaking out cause I was actually eating normal food for the first time in about 5 days. 

For the past few days I've felt about the same. My pain is tolerable. I've only been taking Tylenol for pain and that's it. I've also been eating regularly and trying to walk around as much as I can. Tomorrow  after the stoma nurse comes once more, I will be going home (hopefully!) I think just being at home will make me feel better instead of sitting in this same room day after day. I haven't showered since Tuesday... Ew I know I think I have dreads. Also because I am coming off the prednisone again my acne has been acting up... Oh joy! Just one more thing to bring my confidence down. 

My stomach has just been kinda sore and it's gonna take some time to build my energy back up. I'm hoping this week will be relaxing and pain free for me. I have a lot of adjustments to get use to but I'm ready for it. 

Once I have more time at home I can update again, right now I am just typing from my phone and my fingers are going numb!

-- JKL